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Sunday, November 07, 2010

Frustrating Friends

At this age and maturity, I wonder, where did you get your base to question how I'm leading my life, spend my money or setting my priorities?
Do you even know where you stand in your life or are you just living off the conveniences which your parents are providing for you?

At this age and maturity, do you even know how much does one litre of petrol cost?
When you run dry on supplies, all you got to do is to ask for more. Yes, from your trusted suppliers - mom and dad.

Well sorry, I don't have the alternative to ask from mom and dad, nor would I want to turn to mom and dad, unless if it is an emergency.

What do you understand about commitments when your studies are fully paid off by your parents? You don't have to worry even a bit that you have to work your ass off to accumulate enough finances to pay off a study loan. And you dare question my priorities.

So what is with the issue of people having a problem with me not having a car?
Do they even know how it cost for down payment and how much a smallest dumb car can cost?

I don't even have enough finances to have a meal at a restaurant, hence the 'warung' come in handy. No more average joe cafes, Old Town White Coffee or even McDonald's and KFC. I just can't afford it and that's the fact.

As much as I want to rant about having to travel to Shah Alam, Klang or Puchong, I would want to believe that, even for those who drive would complain having to travel that far for an event. Is it too much for me to even sound my exhaustion?

I feel disappointed and hurt. And I thought nice friends would never change to be nice to you, especially for those whom you have known for a whole good 12 years?
So much for friends forever. Maybe they only existed when I was in high school. But I wished it were true.

And I thought I could depend on friends who have strong faith in God. What happened to their faith? Do they really live in God, or is it all in the mind and not heart?

Why has luxuries in life become their necessities? And as if the idea is not ridiculous enough, they try to exercise that on other people?

I wouldn't say that I am a 100% contented with my life now. But I always remember a saying,'when you feel contented, that will be the end of your life'. Why? Because you stop moving and striving for improvement. And while others continue to move forward, you are stuck in your own comfort zone, thinking that others would think the same. But sadly, you're wrong.

*sigh* I really feel so very disappointed.

siaosiao @ 12:47 AM (3) bla it