wHat God GavE mE tOday ?

Who Are You?

2010-11-07T00:47:00.002+08:00

Frustrating Friends

At this age and maturity, I wonder, where did you get your base to question how I'm leading my life, spend my money or setting my priorities?
Do you even know where you stand in your life or are you just living off the conveniences which your parents are providing for you?

At this age and maturity, do you even know how much does one litre of petrol cost?
When you run dry on supplies, all you got to do is to ask for more. Yes, from your trusted suppliers - mom and dad.

Well sorry, I don't have the alternative to ask from mom and dad, nor would I want to turn to mom and dad, unless if it is an emergency.

What do you understand about commitments when your studies are fully paid off by your parents? You don't have to worry even a bit that you have to work your ass off to accumulate enough finances to pay off a study loan. And you dare question my priorities.

So what is with the issue of people having a problem with me not having a car?
Do they even know how it cost for down payment and how much a smallest dumb car can cost?

I don't even have enough finances to have a meal at a restaurant, hence the 'warung' come in handy. No more average joe cafes, Old Town White Coffee or even McDonald's and KFC. I just can't afford it and that's the fact.

As much as I want to rant about having to travel to Shah Alam, Klang or Puchong, I would want to believe that, even for those who drive would complain having to travel that far for an event. Is it too much for me to even sound my exhaustion?

I feel disappointed and hurt. And I thought nice friends would never change to be nice to you, especially for those whom you have known for a whole good 12 years?
So much for friends forever. Maybe they only existed when I was in high school. But I wished it were true.

And I thought I could depend on friends who have strong faith in God. What happened to their faith? Do they really live in God, or is it all in the mind and not heart?

Why has luxuries in life become their necessities? And as if the idea is not ridiculous enough, they try to exercise that on other people?

I wouldn't say that I am a 100% contented with my life now. But I always remember a saying,'when you feel contented, that will be the end of your life'. Why? Because you stop moving and striving for improvement. And while others continue to move forward, you are stuck in your own comfort zone, thinking that others would think the same. But sadly, you're wrong.

*sigh* I really feel so very disappointed.

The Westin

2009-09-21T00:37:00.009+08:00

It was Stacia's birthday.. hehe.. And we went for a one-night-stay at The Westin..comfy beds, sheets, pillows and freezing cold pool!! hahaha :) But we had fun..

I Love Fendi

2009-07-05T11:34:00.006+08:00

Fendi

I dind't get a bag, but I got a cookie-bag :) And loads of nice pictures!

Simplicity is bliss

2009-07-05T00:59:00.010+08:00

Simplicity | Bliss

More of the wedding

2009-07-04T22:55:00.010+08:00

This is very much belated... but I really miss the place..so I'm posting it for fun, hehe..

MIA

2009-03-31T00:09:00.006+08:00

M.I.A.

Sorry I went m.i.a. for a while. . .

Trying to figure out some certain things..like why am I always lacking this and that..Just so many things been happening and I don't even know how to digest each part of it. Sometimes I feel so tired I just feel like falling asleep and wake up few days later. Maybe with that my mind can work better and at least I feel better too.
So, I think I've had enough of hiding and running away, it's time to get back on my feet and savour each moment and second of air that I'm breathing.

With that, I'm going to post some long overdue photos (for some of you who have no idea what I've been doing for the past few months).

Chun & York's Wedding

End of day one. More tomorrow :)

Your Song

2008-12-27T01:52:00.003+08:00

Your Song by Elton John

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

***

Vaguely remember listening to this song. But it somehow touched me just few days ago. It may sound little old, but I think I like it a lot.

Weird Christmas

2008-12-25T01:10:00.003+08:00

I'm Dreaming Of A Weird Christmas 'Eve'

Another year has passed and I managed to survive it well.
Gladly, friends came, and they stayed throughout the year.
Laughter, joy, tears and happiness were some of the things they brought to 'my year 2008'.

So what's so weird about 'MY' Christmas eve this year?
Instead of spending it with carolers at church member's house. Instead of spending it at mamak stall reminiscing about the year that had passed. Instead of counting down. Instead of helping myself to turkeys. Instead of getting my fingers burnt with candles we're holding while singing in the dark.

I had dinner at BBQ Plaza in Times Square. With Amy, after last-minute Christmas shopping with mom. And yea, sipping coffee at our residential Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf outlet in Ampang Point. How's that for a change?!

Well, at least it was cosy. At least there wasn't a mosh pit. Sweaty bodies rubbing against 1,000 other random 'I dunno whos'. At least there wasn't deafening music playing next to me.

I wanted to stay til 12 midnight, but she said 'Weh..I'm old ady lar..'
Hahahaha. Old konon. Siao-lar..

Nevertheless, I managed to present presents to my family personally, instead of migrating somewhere else on the eve of Christmas! This would my first :)

So before I sign off, I want to wish all you who are reading this a Merry Happy Christmas! It doesn't matter where you are, or who you're with, God knows what's at heart, and He'll always love you :)

Love Lots,

wJ
:)

Tsim Sum

2008-07-20T02:06:00.004+08:00

Tsim Sum

No idea why they named the restaurant that?
It's something similar to Kim Gary and Wong Kok, except food is tastier here :)
And finally a place which had Almond Tea on the menu REALLY served it!
Cos Kim Gary has the Almond Tea on their menu, but they're not serving it. Why can't they just reprint the menu once and for all!

This restaurant, somewhere in Cheras. Can't really remember where it is, haha, cos I wasn't driving and was talking all the way there.

I loved the lighting there, which was why I couldn't resist snapping pictures. Yea, only using my mini cyber-shot..Hehe. The only thing we couldn't stand was the way the menu was written. We wondered what some of them meant...

Yummss..burppp..

Pathology

2008-07-05T03:15:00.002+08:00

Pathology

What it means?
The science or the study of the origin, nature, and course of diseases.

Pathology (2008), was deemed to be gruesome, brutal, heartless and gory. Usually people don't get much out of these kind of shows except the suspense, thriller characters of the villains and more suspense. But towards the end, it managed to make me feel really sad. It didn't have a happy (everything becomes normal) ending..not even close. Instead, the music in the show almost made me drop a tear. It's not a high quality production (like what Anansa would say, B grade movie) and I don't understand why people need to create such a movie. If you can't stand blood, please don't watch it! Wonder if it'll get released in Malaysia?! Cause I think you might end up watching 3/4 or 90% of the movie censored!

Till then...

Fossil Asia Conference P2

2008-06-15T15:03:00.004+08:00

Of Watches And Accessories | Day Two

The second say started quite early and we had to wake up earlier that what it is in KL!

I was yawning all morning..From the launch of the conference until lunch time where I finally got the time for a cup of coffee. Lunch was good! Hehe. Finally I didn't have to hunting for food. If you've been to Hong Kong, food is rather expensive there. Where I was staying, I don't think we would even find anything affordable to eat. So I had all the char-siew and siew yuk, dim sum, salmon etc. anything !

Charms for the bracelet watches. Not that I'm a fan of them, but they were quite pretty to photograph :)

DKNY Spring Summer 2008

Marc by Marc Jacobs

Emporio Armani

Pause...To be continued...

Fossil Asia Conference 2007

2008-06-13T16:44:00.002+08:00

Of Watches And Accessories

Three days was quite a rush, especially if you are planning cover THE whole of Hong Kong island. Well, obviously we didn't have time, considering the fact that our schedules were packed from 8am in the morning right up until 10pm.

It was the Fossil Asia Conference that I went for in Hong Kong. This was last year though. Yeah, this entry shows you how busy I have been. Didn't have time to wait for the computer the hundreds of pictures I took from each place I've visited last year. Have a tiny bit of time now, so here is Hong Kong during sometime in October 2007 (my second visit).

Was kinda bored sitting alone

Arriving at the Hong Kong International Airport

On the way to the hotel

Some flats areas where this backpacker's inn was

Mong Kok MTR station. Yes it's spelled as Mong Kok, but in Cantonese it's 'Wong Kok'

Food yummy food | Smelly Toufoo, Black Pepper Beefball, Cuttlefish etc.

Sai Yeung Choi Street, Mong Kok

Shogun burger at McDonald's with Teriyaki sauce

Yummmms

That was quite the end of day one..til then..

Missing...

2008-05-27T01:17:00.003+08:00

Missing

No I'm not missing. I'm still in Taman Melawati, working in Petaling Jaya.
But instead, I'm missing something.

Just wishing that day didn't end. Had so much fun jamming on the keyboards. Had so much fun watching him run through the guitar frets. Delighted to watch him so happy, almost like he was sugar high! Wish that day didn't end.

That grin that I haven't seen in a long long while. It came back that day. Oh so happy to him smile with glee. The excitement he had, I felt it too. It almost made him jump with joy, leaping with happiness.

I could still imagine the white teeth. The only things visible and lines that were traces of his eyes results of smiling so widely.

I really wish I could see that happy face. Really soon.
I'm missing. That day. I'm missing it oh so much.

:(

Hujan

2008-05-25T01:29:00.002+08:00

Hujan

I'm still kinda blur of where this band originated from. Only managed to find out when they were formed which is somewhere in 2006. Love their song arrangements. The direction is somewhat modern with a little bit of jazz variations infused in their alternative beats. It's really simple, but addictive listening. Stumbled upon it on one of my cab rides to office. Overheard it at Malay Mail. Fell in love with the song arrangements on the spot!

Pagi Yang Gelap

Lebih tua dariku
Harap sabar menunggu
Kepulanganmu ku tunggu

Bukan maksudku mendiam
Tiada niat menyimpan dendam
Hakikatnya rindu yang mendalam
Jalan ini kan membantu
Hari esok siapa yang tahu
Kata ibu dengar sahaja
Cerita hanya kita berdua

Pagi yang gelap
Kini sudah terang
Aku adikmu
Dan engkau abang
Ku amat merindui kamu
Pagi yang gelap
Kini sudah terang
Aku adikmu
Dan engkau abang
Inginku ulang ke masa dulu

Tak akan putus hubungan kita
Tarik nafas lega kerna aku tak apa-apa
Jalan ini kan membantu
Hari esok siapa yang tahu
Kata ibu dengar sahaja
Cerita hanya kita berdua

*It really sounds so jazzy

Love this unplugged arrangement too. It's such an effortless song, but just so soothing. Sounds like something I'd play, hehe. Like the diminished chords (if I remembered my theory lessons right). Though it sounds very rookie, I like the authenticity of the rookie-ness. I like the simple harmonising done to the song too.

Ku Mahu Kau Tahu

Tersudut termenung jauh
Mengenangkan nasib kita
Kita miliki separuh
Berbentuk hati cinta namanya

Walau kau jauh
Ku sentiasa menunggu mu
Pedih ku imbas kembali memori
Walau kau jauh
Ku berjanji kan terus tunggu
Dipisah lautan pilu
Ku mahu kau tahu
Aku kan terus menunggu

Jaga benar gambar ku dalam telefon bimbit mu
Jangan pernah sekali kau buang
Seperti cinta ini yang terbuku
Akan bersemi jua

Walau kau jauh
Ku sentiasa menunggu mu
Pedih ku imbas kembali memori
Walau kau jauh
Ku berjanji kan terus tunggu
Dipisah lautan pilu
Ku mahu kau tahu
Aku kan terus menunggu

Terus menunggu
Kitakan bersatu
Terus menunggu
Ku mahu kau tahu

*Makes me feel like wanna play the guitar suddenly

Havaianas

2008-05-20T17:57:00.008+08:00

Flip-flop Frenzy

I want a pair of Havaianas . . . The shocking pink one! :\ or the yellow, or the purple or the blue?! I want all the colours . . .

But so expensive...and I already have almost 10 pairs of flip-flops! Sobs...

Sunburst 2008

2008-04-20T14:22:00.005+08:00

Sunburst 2008

A delayed post... couldn't get pictures to come in on time..

Hehe. Few years ago when Incubus came I didn't get to watch them. This time, they came again to join the rest of the people who makes the music industry ALIVE N KICKING.

Last minute decision to go cos I wanted to do something else instead...Oh well..I only enjoyed when Incubus came out because the rest were horribly disorganised.

The organisers made a HUGE commotion with John Legend which made the crowd really unhappy, not to mention John Legend swearing on the background. Scary... Some made a comment about him being rude..But I supposed if you had a concert to run, and you soundman doesn't do his job properly, I'd be pissed too! He came out in the end, sweating profusely, but still had a BIG smile on his face :) And when he started on the piano, the rest were history, hahaha. Wonder how they got the grand piano on the stage...hmm..

It was clear that everyone was there to wait for these two big stars to come out towards the end of the show. They were cheering like they've never seen John Legend (well, it's John's first time in Malaysia anyway), while the rest were just singing ALOUD to Incubus' numbers ! At that point in time, I felt like I wanted to pick up a guitar too ! Heehee ! They played a good mixture of old and new songs, which I preferred the older ones.. They somehow sound nicer, haha.

And finally us !

Happy and contended. Hee..

The Attic

2008-04-20T03:16:00.004+08:00

Elvira | The Attic

At first sight, you'd never imagine this girl can sing. I know better, hehe.
It was a long long time ago, when I fist heard her sing. Clueless and lost, I was called to replace some super good pianist whom I only know that his name is Raymond, don't even know what he looks like..

I went anyway. Feeling super lost cos WeiJin was busy meddling with his bass, Derrick was busy meddling with his electric and Jon was banging away on the drums! Me? I sat quietly at the piano, thinking, "Hurm.. what should I do?"

Then, this bubbly girl comes and say, "Play something girl" I only stared back clueless... Kay la.. I wasn't that clueless, but just extremely shy..

Finally after an hour of 'syioking sendiri', the guys came to realisation that we had to PRACTICE! Ish...And this is one day before the carnival that we were to play for..

Well...everything turned out quite ok, although I still felt a little lost...I managed to play a couple of songs decently.. haha :)

So this is about four years later! I got dragged to watch her sing. But I didn't regret, hehe. Thanks Abby (",)

The Band in action ! And us before we left.

On vocals : Elvira & Wei Li
Piano and Violin : Wei Li
Bass : Hiro

Joshua and TJ

The crazy girl who dragged me there

American Idol

2008-04-13T13:59:00.002+08:00

Shout To The Lord

You hardly would ever hear someone singing gospel music on national television, unless it's Amazing Grace, but I heard Shout To The Lord! And that was during the recent episode of American Idol.

Not a person who follows the reality show, but off and on, I do take glimpses at the tele when family is watching. I remember having my headphones on, and I heard, "My Jesus, my saviour" ??? Hahaha. I thought I was hearing things. With the choir at the background, it really sounded like those church singing in Sister Act! Except they didn't have Whoopi Goldberg wasn't conducting the choir :p

It really did sound like Darlene Dzech leading a worship session with back up singers! Heehee. I ironically, my brother was at the Planet Shakers concert in FGA..and he didn't ask me to go along.. :(

Oh well, I got to listen to the American Idols sing Shout To The Lord. One my all time favourites and I liked how Ezra made the song sound even nicer with drop D tuning on the guitar.

I miss singing . . . and jamming the most . . .

The Meet-Up

2008-04-12T23:58:00.008+08:00

We Met Up

Eh? Oh.. I'm back. After disappearing for a while.
Yea, I'm still alive..Just a little tilted to the 'I'm dead' side. But getting better..

I miss uni. I miss the mamak where we used to hang out at everyday eating nasi lemak and chee cheong fun or just mix rice. Even if we had a 45-minute break we'd walk there, through the sun or rain.

If we had more time, me and Christina will walk to Jaya (which is going to be demolished) I don't remember much of what we do there, but yea, we go there quite a lot during 2 hour breaks or more. Most of the time, she's run to the Starbucks inside Jaya, and buat some kacau with the people and after we've successfully mess the whole cafe up, we'd bid goodbye! Lalala, walk out of Starbucks like celebrities. Hahaha.

Not to mention that we celebrate EVERY single person's birthday and its compulsory to humiliate them! I got one of the worst! But I think they were all memories worth cherishing..Try making your colleague stand on a chair at the mamak and sing them a birthday song! Or decorating their car with water colour! Oh, conduct a fund raising project!! Goodness, that was us..and still are. Heehee.

Haven't seen them in ages and I decided to drop by at the very last minute..This was two Saturdays ago..at The Apartment, The Curve. Was kinda zoned out..but their laughters dragged me back into the happy atmosphere, thank GOD.

Mei Lui

Lit Han | The only Chinese guy in our class

Wan Yee

Lydia

Look like poster

Lamb Shank | What I ate

We're still as crazy as ever...I had fun laughing at everyone, although half the time I couldn't really understand what they were talking about..Yah, my Chinese gotten worse..Well, considering they are the only ones that I speak Chinese to, and I haven't seen them for eons! Like that lar...

Hoping to see them real soon again... *huggs* you guys :)

Emily

2008-03-26T00:57:00.006+08:00

Em Fung

For four days, that loud voice wasn't anywhere to be heard. I was wondering, where la this girl went to..I found out from another person that her e-mail had an auto message alert, those you put on when you're not in the office to reply e-mails/on leave.

Then on Thursday before the wedding, she called me to ask me about something. Then only she told me that she'd only be coming back in April.. Even though it was only four days she wasn't around, sort of miss her shouting from her desk, calling my name 'WERNNNNNN'.

Yeah, that's how Emily calls me in the office. She created that name, and now the rest of the marketing department calls me that too. I hope she comes back faster!

Being the one person that I had a misunderstanding with, we reconciled..and now we're still good friends. Watching her walk into the restaurant that night, clutching Jame's hand made me tear a little..Hehe. Touched mar...

Yup..Em did it! And she looked fabulously stunning that night!

That's us - Aishah, Emily and Caryn
The smiles | Priceless

Marmalade

2008-03-23T03:11:00.004+08:00

Marmalade

Some say the food doesn't taste good. Some say the food here totally sucks. Some say, "I ordered something, and my friends ordered other stuff, they all tasted bad."

Somehow.. I love the food here to the bits! I can eat lasagnas two days in a row. Oreo cheesecake? YUM. You have to share though, cos the portions are really HUGE. The quiche is tasty, but not sure bout the smoked salmon ones...taste rather fishy...otherwise, the turkey and ham is yummy! However, I still prefer their lasagnas any day. Drinks are generally tasty. Iced Honey Latte. Mmmm...Lattes are my favourite. You could never go wrong with it. Well.. I had a bit of space, so I downed the Strawberry cuppy. YUM.

Don't worry..I don't eat there everyday.. otherwise I might spend a whole month's salary there...Simply delicious!

Another One

2008-03-16T04:22:00.002+08:00

Another One

Kim's birthday

Yums

2008-03-16T03:23:00.006+08:00

Yummy

I fell in love with D'lish. Can't stop eating there. Well, it's half price after 9pm. Heehee :)

I love cupcakes | Raspberry Chocolate Cheese

Mushroom Olio

Shepherds' Pie

Yummers...Eh..I also can cook lo mushroom olio.. Hahaha :P

Happy Meal

2008-03-02T03:08:00.004+08:00

Happy Meal

Working til 9pm isn't that great. Especially when I can hardly open my eyes after that, having to sleep late because I over exhausted myself and yet, there is still work to be done.

If you think I get to sleep in the next day and get into office a little later, you thought wrong. That's why I hate it when people say things like, 'Oh you journalist have flexi working hours don't you..'

True for most, but not true for me. Yah, I have a MAD editor who is obsessed with me coming into the office early to talk to the mosquitoes or flies if there may be...Yup, no sane human beings come to work as early as I do. Not even marketing.

What's new? I got a threat. That if I come in late after 10am, I will have to punch in from March 1st onwards. At the though of that, I really feel like quiting my job. All my friends who are in my line has a freedom of coming into office at a fairly flexible time, while I have to abide by the 9am - 5pm shit. Trust me, it sucks.

Where I live, it's not exactly that easy to get a direct transport to my God forsaken office area. And usually, the lrt station at Wangsa Maju is perpetually PACKED from 7am-10am. Yah, 10-freaking-am.

Don't blame me if I'm always in a bad mood...I didn't choose to be. Sigh... so tired...

***

It's the little things like hanging out with my favourite friends that keep me sane in a day...and I thank God for them...

When I'm thirsty, I go get beers. When I'm hungry, I just go find delicious food.

At D'lish

I need to lose weight...

Mei's Birthday

2008-03-01T15:36:00.006+08:00

Fooh

Blow the candles. Cut the cake.
Our entertainment desk always remembers birthdays. How nice.
It was Mei's birthday. The whole canteen of theSun and The Edge sand for her :)

One of my favourite aunties in the office...Happy Birthday Mei!

of Smiles

2008-03-01T03:22:00.002+08:00

of Smiles

Chinese New Year Haps

2008-03-01T00:41:00.003+08:00

Post Chinese New Year (craziness)

It has to be the most Lion Dances I've seen in my life in such a short span of time!
One after another they came, first from Astro, the A Famosa then this other shopping mall...Chang Chang Chang!

Not to mention that one came and disturbed me so terribly! Grrrr.. and went after Lai Kuan too! Haha ! Now, they made me have a phobia against LIONS! (those dancing ones lar).

Although those few weeks of pre-Chinese New Year and post were rather hilarious, they were fun in many weird ways.

I remember telling Jaimie that the last one was for her because she missed the first two! Hahaha !

Some sent cakes while others sent the usual hampers and all sorts of variants that you could never have thought to send as CHINESE NEW YEAR gifts!

No matter what, we had much fun :)

Rafflesia sent us these Mandarin orange cake...

Those mascots were HUGE

Someone gave cupcakes.. I forgot who...but they tasted really GOOD! Some went rolling on the ground, but, the cream was still in TACT! Wonder what they put inside it...

Kay..chup..I wanna go breathe for a while.. to be continued...

The Korean Affair

2008-02-19T00:05:00.004+08:00

Korean Yummy

This is the second time that I'm eating at this Korean restaurant at SS2 and I still can't recall its name.. haha. But regardless, we had a good time. Our last dinner with Pit Yee before she returned to Korea to continue her studies and part-time teaching. Something of what we did and ate :)

And these were from Christina's collection of smileys :)

Burrrpppp...

Me 24th

2008-01-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

The Mini Celebration

Three years in a row they sang 'Happy Birthday' to me. I'm happy. This year, it was with my new found friend, Jolene :)

She poked those fries into the sauce

Yah, I'm still very amazed with my phone

Camerons Re-Visit

2008-01-23T11:01:00.001+08:00

Of Flowers, Sunshine & Deserts

It's always a refreshing thought, or a refreshing feeling as soon as I step foot on Camerons. Especially Tanah Rata. Filled with beautiful memories that I'd never forget for a whole lifetime.

So we made out way up to visit Xin and Jill. They were both 'oh so happy' to see us! I remember being as happy when Julian came up to visit me and Rachel. That showed how much we missed home. Well, when you're being "abandoned" at somewhere far far from home, that's when you will start appreciating your bed! Oh, but I liked the bunk at HCC (Highland's Christian Centre) anyway.. hehe. Missed those pillow talks I had with Steph and Beattrice.. How we were whispering so hard so the staff won't hear us or the others might wake up! Man, that was in 2002. Yup. Whole six years!

So, something to fill you in, what Camerons is all about for me.

We were at this restaurant, first time there. The flowers were just so pretty :)

This was at Excellent restaurant | Banana Ice Cream Pancake

At Pasar Tani, Brinchang

The cactus I bought

The other two kinds I bought

Strawberry Pancake at Yong Teng Cafe

I'm missing it already...

He Wished Me

2008-01-18T02:19:00.000+08:00

He Wished Me

'Happy New Year, hope it'll be a better for you next year'

That came in 10 minutes before the clock struck 12am, marking 2008.

At that very moment, I had a sudden inspiration that things will be better. But how is it going to be a year better if everything keeps crumbling on me.

Everyone keeps saying:

Its a new year, don't sulk
Its a new year, forgive
Its a new year, forget about it
Its a new year, you're supposed to be 'happy happy'

But how am I suppose to even try to be happy when things just keep falling?

I try to tell myself everyday, that tomorrow will be a better day.
But the moment I open my eyes to my alarm clock, things only became worse.

The friends that I use to hang out with, all of a sudden just decided to turn their backs on me. One day they're your best buddies, next month, they just stop calling you.

My colleagues? They can't stop betraying me. Putting words in my mouth and spreading things that I didn't say to the world. My reputation? -10.

I miss those 'Rachel' days like hell. I really miss them.
I miss those 'him' days like hell. I really miss them too.

Am I asking for too much? For a friend to just stand by my side to listen to me whenever I want to talk?

I do so much to please them. When they need help, I'm always there. But why when I need help, I only have myself to rely on...
I go through so much shit to get them out of shit. But when I'm in shit, who's there?
I end up crying. Thinking, where the hell are all my 500 phone book contacts...

I cherish everyone so much. But none of them seem to make me feel the same.

I don't force people to movies, I don't force people for lunch and I don't even force people to listen... I only wish they would at least pay attention and acknowledge that I am still here...

Right now, I'm stuck in some hell where people are not talking to me when I miss them the most. I have a cover story to finish, but I just can't stop feeling hurt.

I wish I never asked that stupid question. If only we could pick up from that day. I'd be the happiest girl.

I wonder if my tear glands would ever dry up...
I don't want to cry myself to sleep anymore.. I don't want to..

I miss Rachel.. and I miss him so much more...

I'm so tired...and sad...haven't felt so down in such a long long while...
Please come back....Please don't leave me behind...
I really want everyone to be normal again...

2008-01-03T10:33:00.000+08:00

Green Happiness

Haven't had Green Tea Latte in a long long time. While I randomly walked into Starbucks this morning, saw some queer posters. I thought I saw Rooibos Tea Latte and Black Tea Latte? Hurm.. I wonder what would the Rooibos taste like.. Eee.. too sleepy to digest how it may taste, I just ordered my green thing.

For long time I haven't tasted such a well-blended drink. I'm contented. My green to-go cup. However, I'm still sleepy. Oh well.. off to KL soon to run an interview with Monica Lee. Yeah, L'Oreal Paris' makeup artist and official makeup artist for Anugerah Juara Lagu. I wonder if I'd get to go for it ! I don't mind having a closer look at Nora or Misha, haha.

Alright.. back to the old grind..

2007-12-29T21:25:00.000+08:00

Christmas and New Year Happs

Christmas wasn't so happy this year..New Year was so gloomy too...for some particular unexplainable reasons...
I wish so many things could be better.
I wish so many things could be happier.

These are some that made me smile. But not for a long time. Nevertheless, I cherish the moments when the wishes and smiles came across.

Yeah.. I chopped off my hair..

Mifa 2007

2007-12-09T15:02:00.000+08:00

M-IFW 2007 by mifa

The Malaysia International Fashion Week ended bout two weeks ago I think. It was also the event that made me fall sick. Fever just went away, now still sniffing..deciding if I'm having a flu. Urgh..

Oh well.. I didn't really take pictures this time round. Let the Pros do the job. However, Joanne accompanied me for the finale. Which we had to stand for almost four hours ! But we had fun :)

Intermission...

Frasers

2007-12-09T02:37:00.000+08:00

Brrr

[Finally have time to tell some stories]

It's been quite some time since the last I visited Frasers. Went there with Amy and her CG and Crystal was there too.

We started our way up at about 10pm ! Madness. That was the latest ever I've driven up to Frasers. Reached there safely of course and had dinner at 1am ! The rest who were already up there were starvingggggg ! But we had a sumptuous meal of steamboat dinner!

That weekend was just simply relaxing and I did major bumming. Sleeping late and waking up just in time for breakfast at 10am. Hehe.

Although Frasers isn't very much developed, I liked it as it is. The tranquility and still cool air.

All three days were self-cooked meals which I enjoyed quite a bit ! Yummmmms.

We took a walk at the nearby town centre. A quiet town it was, but cosy. It started to rain halfway through! So we ran to a nearby mamak stall, where Amy, Pam, Crys and Jon went obsessed over a Tamil movie ! Ish...

The major emphasis of this whole trip? FOOD.

Genting Revisit

2007-10-29T00:50:00.000+08:00

Cold Air

So we all decided to drive up. Had Dim Sum on the way up at Gohtong Jaya. Running around wet since it was raining half the time. Madness. Sang out lungs out at karaoke. But I enjoyed sipping the Green Tea Latte at Starbucks. It gave me super power ! Cos I was the only one who wasn't cold anymore after that cuppa. Cheese !

Thus ends out journey...

Mei Fern's

2007-10-28T22:27:00.001+08:00

Mei Fern's

September 29, 2007 marked a historical moment. Hehe.

Wedding reception was held at Petaling Jaya Gospel Centre while the wedding dinner was sumptuously eaten at Cyberview Lodge Spa & Resort.
I think we went back at about 12am. Reached Taman Tun at about 1am. But, somehow I was hungry, too nervous cos I had to perform short item (stage fright). Didn't eat. So we went mamak. Had apam. Yum..

Witnessing the wedding was something most of us dind't think would come so early, but were all very glad. Especially for Mei Fern. It still seems weird to me that she is married. When a year ago we were still talking nonsense at Phileo, where I met her and Wen Tze for lunch.

Everything just sort of moved so fast. I feel like I'm still stuck in 2006.
Still thinking that I'm 22. No I'm 23 this year.

Banking Agony

2007-10-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

Bank Agony

Just before I left for Hong Kong last week, I thought I'd redraw some extra cash just in case I didn't have enough to pay for Amy and Crystal's iPods. Stuck my card into the machine. Before I can even enter my pin number, guess what? The machine jammed. Thanks to my card, the rest of the queue couldn't redraw money as well.

Couldn't do anything since the day after I arrive in KL was Raya. Until today.

Made my way to the Maybank branch on Jalan 222, PJ.
Almost couldn't replace my card just because I forgot to bring my identity card. In actual fact, they actually had a counter for forgetful people like me, but refused to reveal the solution right until I made such a BIG fuss !

Which a Chinese lady replied, "Cannot lah, later you simply do transaction then how?" In the most broken English. Yerh, feel like slapping her!

So I gave them my driver's license instead.
Sat for almost an hour. Wondering what in the world was taking them so long !
Bear in mind, there wasn't anyone in line. Only me, and this family. Oh, not to forget this guy whom I thought he was a security guard.

"Cik kena tunggu giliran." Giliran? Where? No queue also.. Even the lady before me scolded cos her kids were rolling all over Maybank like it was some playground, haha. One of which thought I was amusing started smiling at me. Cute little kid, hehe. Yah, my only amusement for that LONG duration there !

One and a half hour just to replace an ATM Bankard ! Gosh. Madness.
And they made me pay RM12. Which was totally silly when it was their machine that swallowed my card for no apparent reason. Stupid.

People at the bank weren't really helping. They actually told me that if I didn't wan to pay, I have to wait until KLIA's ATM operators sent my card back to the Jalan 222 branch ! MADNESS ! Then what am I supposed to use for the next few days or the whole duration of God knows when the card is going to be returned??

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

So I paid. Unwillingly. Gave them a smirk and stomped off. Waste my time. Didn't even eat lunch then. Too frustrated.

Stupid bank with the most unfriendly staff !

Miss the Kids

2007-10-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

Kids

I wish am one now.
Just suddenly miss the kids.
What I admire most, heir carefree smiles.

Sigh... I miss the kids... I miss smiling...

MIsery

2007-10-03T00:14:00.000+08:00

Misery

What did I ever do to get all these treatment?
What did I ever say to be treated this way?

It sucks every time you try to pick yourself up, and the stone just comes rolling back down at you. After you have climbed up that steep hill, someone screams for help, you pause. You turn back to help that person, and you have to start all over again. Not only the person didn't say thank you, instead blame you for causing him/her to be delayed. What gratitude.

I so tired at times. Being nice to people is probably my nature. But being hurt in return is the last that I'd want to happen to me. I didn't say anything or do anything. All I did was to walk over, out of concern and puzzle, asked of how I could assist? Instead I got a cold shoulder right for almost more than a week. She used to be so fun and bubbly. Suddenly, she just became so mean. If only the uncle didn't put his phone on loud speaker I'd probably not be as hurt as now. Not blaming the uncle, but myself for paying so much attention. What hurt me most, the things she said were untrue. But what prove do I have to defend myself? Almost none. Some words can just be so blatantly pointed at you. Its easy for them to say it. But it really isn't easy for me to accept something that I'm not.

One moment she's so close to me. Next moment she treats me like as if I'm going to run away with her RM370. I really don't need this shit right now. A promise is promise. I said I'd pay you and I mean it. What good does it do you to go round chasing me for that small amount of money which means almost nothing to you? It'll only hurt people around you. Why am I being treated like a some liar?

These bad things just won't stop happening to me. As the more and more people of such surround me. Continuing to say mean things to me, treating me like a convict. Its not out of pure exaggeration, but from the bottom of my heart.

I'm really very tired of living as me. Sometimes I don't even want to wake up in the morning. Sometimes I even feel like getting run down by some accidental vehicle passing by. It'll probably clear all the hurts I have right now...

I wish I had a coma. I really wish I had it right now...

I really miss the people who used to be around.. I hope they are still around...cos I really miss them badly...

Cry's Grad

2007-09-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

Cry Is Finally Free

Two weeks back, we witness the graduation of Crystal.
How often do you get your kindergarten mate to attend your graduation?
Well she got me.

Since 5, we were in the same class; school, parted to our respective universities.
Amy came along the way in primary school. Man I miss school. Those 'I don't want to friend you' symptoms and the 'I bluff bluff friend you'. I'm sure you miss them too.

So here's the girl whom I knew since I was 5 ! With that four-edged-hat.
Amy said,"So many Harry Potters!" I just agreed and we both burst out laughing.

*huggs*

Bali | Day Four

2007-09-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

Bali | Day Four

Woke a little later since the past few days we woke up rather late, hehe. Took a stroll to lunch destination to meet Jaq's new found Jap friend. Had Mcd's for lunch. yummy fried chicken with rice.

Took a short walk at the beach before heading back to the hotel to leave for the airport.

The whole Mcd's was transparent. So different from ours :p

I'm missing Bali already...

Bali Day Three

2007-09-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

Bali | Day Three

At Kuta Beach opposite of Hardrock Cafe. Waves were so HUGE it almost seemed like Tsunami. I got tiny bit scared... heehee. But I had fun sun bathing :)

Watching the Sunset

Just concentrate on the sunset height

The hotel by night

Day Two

2007-09-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

Bali | Day Two

It was a sight seeing day. Tiring though. Climbing in and out of the pajero that drove us around. But I had fun :)

The Painting Gallery

At the temple
One with the people

Another without

Wood Carving

The Hollanders

Pokok Kelapa Tinggi

Coffee

Little kid

Thus ends our second day :)

Bali

2007-09-04T01:40:00.000+08:00

Cold Ocean

For some reasons, the sea was cold. Sand was really hot though. You wouldn't be able to walk to anywhere unless if you're with your flip=flops. Either that or you can just tahan til your feet touches the water. Man, I love the water.

It was a random holiday, totally unplanned. Quite a rush since I didn't get to spend much time at the beach, which is one thing that I love so much!

Nevertheless, I had a blissful time there. What I love most bout that place, the peacefulness and calmness of it. Well, besides the surfer dudes. Hehe. I don't mind retiring there. Have a pub of my own, and have live music whole day long! Yup, I think that'll be it. Missing it loads already!

Well here's Bali from me to you :)

Day One
Too board on the plane, we resorted to my camera.

Made's Warong

Jackie

Amy's 23rd

2007-08-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

Her 23rd

My high school mate.
Kind of, one of the many that I'm still in touch with.
She turned a year older yesterday.
Hapee Burfday gurl!

We had dinner at the most beautiful restaurant - Nero Teca, Ground Floor, Sumerset, 8 Lorong Ceylon, 50250 Kuala Lumpur.

And adjourned for cup cakes at Bisou, Asian Herritage Row, Kuala Lumpur.

Couldn't drink much of anything, except Segafredo's Peach Tea and Dilmah's Peppermint Tea.

Amy

Pots & Pans

Lemon Cuppie

Coffee Cuppie

Peanut Butter Cuppie

Amy's

*burp*

Hapee Burfday again gurl :)

*muacks*

YF Dinner

2007-08-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

The Dinner

Thus ended the reunion dinner.
I was flipping lamb chops ! Yummms :)

There were about 60 of us. Whoah!
Yup, that was my exact reaction.

I admired the smiles, the sweat and cream? Teehee.

Ashley : Wen-Li

Jill

This is for now. More to come! :P

Butterflies

2007-07-31T02:31:00.000+08:00

Puffy Clouds

I've got butterflies in my stomach.
Bubbles in my feet.
Cheeks rosy red.

I'm just happy.
Smiling back at myself.
I thank God for that.

:)

A Change

2007-07-28T02:46:00.000+08:00

You Changed?

It's amazing how one can change from a perfectly sane character into some out-of-the-world mad person.

Beats me how they do it, but hurts me how they hit me with their temper.
In result to that, I ran to the toilet to cry.

I didn't have a choice. It's either I sat at the computer, halfway typing away, wiping my tears away; or I go to some place where people can't see me.
That leaves me with only one choice. The washroom.

Couldn't stay in there for too long cos someone came in. They'd find it weird to hear someone sniffing in one of the cubicles. So, I had to go back to my seat. Made sure my eyes didn't look red.

Went back to my half-written article. Thinking of a 100 ways of how to concentrate and not write rubbish? I just couldn't.

Minutes later, I got a message saying, 'Hey, I just said a short prayer for you.' It's been so long since someone said that. The last I had that was when Suleen accidentally texted my other mobile. I even missed people telling me that they prayed for me. I felt a little better.

I want thing that had gone bad to recover. When will that day come? :(

I miss RBS. I miss my room mates then.

***

My thoughts always tend to boggle over why people choose to be what they are today. I could never understand.

Sometimes I feel silly to think that there is a good person in everyone. But that's what I've been holding on to. All these years.

I need a hug :(

How Deep The Father's Love For Us

2007-07-28T02:30:00.000+08:00

How Deep The Father's Love For Us

How deep the father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure,
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure.
How great the pain of searing loss –
The Father turns His face away,
As wounds which mar the Chosen One
Bring many sons to glory.

Behold the man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders;
Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice
Call out among the scoffers.
It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished;
His dying breath has brought me life –
I know that it is finished.

I will not boast in anything,
No gifts, no power, no wisdom;
But I will boast in Jesus Christ,
His death and resurrection.
Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer;
But this I know with all my heart –
His wounds have paid my ransom.

Stuart Townend.

Just Remembered

2007-07-17T00:20:00.000+08:00

Bumped

Thought she looked familiar, then when she turned sideways, JANE !
Hurm... kinda miss them.. the ex-colleagues.. before Jane left we took this pictures ! (suddenly I remembered that I haven't posted them..hehe)

Birthday Girl

2007-06-30T02:16:00.000+08:00

Birthday Girl

I remember hiding behind the car last year, to just surprise her with the birthday cake in my hands. With candles lit, the cake weighed almost a tonne! Imagine squatting behind, someone's car, I recalled almost having my legs crammed.

Together with few other people, we sorta gave her a surprise. But she said she could almost guess that it was coming. Don't know who blew the cover.

This year? I was stuck in 1 Utama for work on the eve of her birthday.. and on her birthday, which was yesterday, I was stuck in Genting, for another assignment...

So today we finally made it for dinner. Me, May Lee and her. A pleasant dinner it was, I would say. I'm stuffed. I even forgot to bring my left over packed lasagna home...Oh well...a Ms Reads dinner and La Bodega's deep fried goat's cheese for desert, and a cold glass of Iced Mocha. YUM.

Just felt a bit weird.. why no one asked me to plan anything this year.. when usually I'm the one always coming out with weird ideas to surprise people... I love surprises. But no one has ever given a surprise besides the surprise he gave me upon telling me that he was going to resign a month before he finally hand in the letter.

Man I miss my friends. A lot.

Sometimes I wish they'd remember me more often. I'm working, but doesn't mean I can't spare time. I miss doing nothing. I miss the friends who once remembered me.

Oh well...

Here's to friendship. The smiles on our faces. Contended and satisfied.

2007-06-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

3/4 Chopped

I have bobbed hair now.
No more long hair.
No more scrunchie.
No more late nights trying to dry hair.

No picture of my short hair yet though, hehe.
Oh well, try to bump into me whenever you can.
Teehee.

Mean while, I kinda miss the long hair, although I'm getting a lot of compliments on this new one ! Haha ;p

One of the things that keeps me going. Sigh. I miss my friends. Random.
I miss hanging out. I miss doing nothing. Yeah, I was telling Jackie I wanna retire.
Eye luggages, how Emily puts it. So farny.. Oh well, that's what the marketing teams are for. They cheer me up. A lot.

I need a hug. Badly.

cupcakes

2007-06-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

Cute Cupcakes

They were sent to the office by someone, I wasn't sure who.
Only to editorial..but obviously there wasn't enough to go around.
Somehow, I had two. So I gave one to Ana, had another one.
But, in the end gave away mine too...
These were the cupcakes, so cute right.. ;P

Jaime's cookie monster and my elmo.

Estee Lauder

2007-06-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

Pleasures

I wouldn't consider it luxury.
Nor would I call it luck.
Too much freebies?
I wouldn't say so too.

Maybe just, gifts from God. I'd say so.

Before this bottle of perfume even reach Malaysia to be sold over the counters, I got to it ! Compliments of Estee Lauder.
The usual Estee Lauder Pleasures bottle, but classified under a collector's edition, the bottle is uniquely designed with floral motives, emphasising its exotic essence.
Instead of the regular Pleasures signature scent, the exotic fragrance is an infusion of Mango Passion Fruit Cocktail, Pink Grapefruit, Orange and Dewy Green Leaves. Also in the concoction, if you can distinguish, the stronger notes are of Island Bamboo flowers, Hibiscus and fresh Orange blossoms.

The after scent of this exotica, Lychee and tangy Cassis blend with Bougainvilla, tender Peony, Rose petals and the rare Baie Rose. Leaving a slight musky feeling would be the smooth drydown of Indian Sandalwood, Sun-kissed Amber and soft Violet Woods.

This, would be it. I never really had enough money to spend on a solid bottle of perfume. So I'd say, its a tiny gift from above.

I miss Those Days

2007-05-12T15:16:00.000+08:00

Missing Those Days

Just plain lepak and self portraits. Yes I miss those.

Carlsberg Bottle

2007-04-15T01:07:00.000+08:00

Flicked

I'm not in jail for doing this. Haha.
I didn't rob the bank.
Or pick-pocketed.

I just "accidentally" took an empty Carlsberg bottle away from the bar.

After the Fashion On 1 fashion show, we adjourned to that weird Bar & Bistro.
With an empty stomach, I didn't want to drink, but tempted by the beer. Heehee.

I had half, while the other half went into another person's stomach. Haha.

So here's the beautiful bottle.

An Annual Event

2007-04-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

An Annual Event

Nah, not organising a party. Nor meeting or conference.
Instead, thinking hard, how do I get to office tomorrow?

I have a sprained ankle again. Why again?

Let me take you back to year 2001.
Where I partially tore my first ligament on my left foot.
Year 2005, I tore another one two weeks before Captainball tournament.

Then last year, I sprained my right ankle. Gone was the good ankle.
A week before Floorball tournament. Wonderfulness.
Painful and not fully-healed, I played anyway. Eh, I shot goals ! Haha.

And today, I sprained the right ankle, again. Clumsy-me.
Now I'm hobbling. Tomorrow I have to go to work.

It used to be, sprain, stay at home and don't move.
But now, since I'm working already, wanted to go for an MC, decided not to...looking at the amount of work I have to complete.

I write with my fingers mar.. not foot. Haha. So, as long as I stay put, don't go nosing around, I will be fine.

Annual fall I would say. Every year also have to fall one time. Giler me.

So anyone wanna give me a lift? You're most welcome ! Haha !

My Delayed Langkawi

2007-03-24T02:02:00.000+08:00

Beaches & Sand

Date : 7th January 2007

At the Oriental Village just before we went on the cable cars.

It was a bit misty at the peak, but the view was GOOD. Hehe. 710 meters above sea level. So they said.

Where we took a self portrait. Only two of us mer. NO choice. :p

My comfy day bed & Grins

My yummy Nasi Goreng Kampung at Oriental Village

Some of dinner at random chinese restaurant. This is Herbal Chicken.

Curry Fish Head

My second set, bought at Oriental Village, hehe.

Half way up the wells !

Yeh ! Reached. Alive.

Erm.. she took. I didn't ask.

Chomp chomp chomp.

Pebble Beach

Forced smile..my stomach buat hal...

Pregnant Maiden Lake

So bored...played with spidey.

Pebble Beach in the Day !

Stolen shot.

Last morning at the beach.

Bye-bye, on the ferry.

*poof*

When Did You Fall

2007-03-13T01:08:00.000+08:00

When Did You Fall
Chris Rice

You’re all smiles and silly conversation
As if this sunny day came just for you
You twist your hair, you smile, and you turn your eyes away
C’mon, tell me what’s right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’
And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize
‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at its joke on me
I just caught it in your eyes, it’s a beautiful surprise

When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?

Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind
C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me
I bet my face is red, and you can hear my heart poundin’
Well I guess it don’t matter now that I realize
‘Cause baby I missed it then, but I can surely see you now
Right here before my eyes
You’re my beautiful surprise

When did you fall in love with me?
Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it
When did you let your heart run free?
Have you been waiting long?
When did you fall in love with me?
When did you fall in love?

Was it at the coffee shop
Or that morning at the bus stop
When you almost slipped, and I caught your hand
Or the time we built the snowman
The day at the beach, sandy and warm
Or the night with the scary thunderstorm
I never saw the signs
Now we’ve got to make up for lost time
And I can tell now by the way that you’re looking at me
I’d better finish this song so my lips will be free

Have you been waiting long, when did you fall in love
I kept you waiting so long, when did you fall
Have you been waiting long
When did you fall in love with me
When did you fall in love?

No Particular Order

2007-03-10T12:49:00.000+08:00

No Order

I'm still alive.
Just exhausted and tired with happiness !
No, don't get me wrong. What I meant was, I'm happily exhausted, haha :)
Weird?
Well, that's just me at the moment.

Since the 1st of March, life has been happier than it has always be !
Nothing beats what you've been looking for finally found !
*She smiles a BIG wide smile

Some may say I'm dreaming. Some may say that it's too early to tell.
I don't care what you say, I am happy. Hehe.
I've looked hard. Now I don't have to live with something I don't like, but instead, gel work with life, the happiest thought one can ever get !

Overloaded with work, but happily overloaded.
It's the joy in within that I've found. I love my job.
And I thank God for that.

Hippity-hoppity-hop !

I could never describe how happy I am.

I'm In Love With You

2007-03-08T01:13:00.000+08:00

I'm In Love With You
words and music by Joy Williams and Brandon Heath

I've been waiting all my life for this morning
Just to wake up next to you holding me
And your head is resting gently on my shoulder
Like you're whispering to me
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
So glad I found you
I'm in love with you
When we're leaving dreams and rolling back the covers
All at once we're getting ready for the day
It's when you look at me in the mirror while you're shaving
Before I go on my way, you say
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
You're the one I choose
‘Cause I'm in love
Love is joy and love is pain
It's kissing in the rain
It's doing dishes when it's late
Isn't it, baby
It's the art of compromise
It's hellos and long goodbyes
It's the picture of our lives
Isn't it crazy
So I'll call you when I get to where I'm going
And I'll tell everyone we know you said hello
And without fail they'll ask me if I miss you
Of course I do, you know I do
‘Cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
You're the one I choose
I'm in love
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I love you just the same as I did the day
I fell in love with you

***

It wasn't the lyrics that brought me to include this here.
It was simply the tune of soft guitar.
Makes me want to tear.
Her voice so crisp and clear.
Singing almost under her breathe.
*I slump on my bed*
Imagine your bedsheets white, fluffy pillows complemented with a comfy white quilt cover.
My bed to be one day.

Lemonade

2007-02-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

Lemonade - Chris Rice

So go ahead and ask her
For happy ever after
‘Cause nobody knows what’s coming
So why not take a chance on loving
Come on, pour the glass and tempt me
Either half-full or half-empty
‘Cause if it all comes down to flavor
The glass is tipping in my favor

Life gave me lemonade and I can’t imagine why
Born on a sunny day, beneath a tangerine sky
I live life without pretending
I’m a sucker for happy endings
Thanks for the lemonade
Thanks for the lemonade!

Now take your time to answer me
For the beauty of romancing
Is to calm your trembling hand with mine
While begging love to fill your eyes
I can hardly breathe while waiting
To find out what your heart is saying
And as we’re swirling in this flavor
The world is tilting in our favor

Life gave me lemonade and I can’t imagine why
Born on a sunny day, beneath a tangerine sky
I live life without pretending
I’m a sucker for happy endings
Thanks for the lemonade
Thanks for the lemonade!

I’ve got it made
Rest in the shade
And hold my love
While God above
Stirs wiith a spoon
We share the moon
Smile at the bees
More sugar please
He really loves us after all
We’re gonna need another straw!
We’re gonna need another straw!

Life gave me lemonade and I can’t imagine why
Born on a sunny day, beneath a tangerine sky
I live life without pretending
I’m a sucker for happy endings
Thanks for the lemonade
Thanks for the lemonade!

Copyright 2004 Clumsy Fly Music (ASCAP)

New Year's Eve

2007-02-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

Eve 2006

Woops.. another delayed post.. hehe.. so many pending posts.. NO TIME.
Haha. Well, this was my new year's eve. And I loved it :)

I got to sleep on Xin's bed while she was in Shanghai

My favourite lil friends | Evelyn & Wen-Li ( They're only 12! )

A little something made me smile (I've always loved the shape of it, but didn't get to buy it, alas !)

It was quite a weird day, as it was a Sunday.
In some ways it didn't feel like as if it was
new year's eve.
I did some work on that day.
Had a great laugh with the people I interviewed that day.
He made me smile that day too :)

***

Few hours later it was New Year's Day already.
Me, Cheng and Su-Yi decided to go watch a movie.
Hehe..
I can't remember when was the last time I watched a movie.
Movies these days don't impress me much.
Looking forward to Harry Potter though. Wish there were some more of Lord of The Rings. Ah... Narnia !
Ouhkay I giler..

Anyhow, we watched Night at the Museum together.
And had a fun time playing with these when we came out of the cinema exit !
That was how much I missed the piano...
Playing a duet with Cheng, I had my own piano and she had her own !

Before that, breakfast was Wan Ton Mee !

Have a Su-Yi

The noodle

Fetched Xin from the air port that night. Hehe. Her room turned into tornado ! With me and su-yi inside it. Three of us stuffed in one room. Hehe. I miss those times..

Lunch the next day was superb !
Saravanaa Bhavan , you should go ! Yummy Indian food cooked by chefs imported from India.
Yummmmmms ;)

My Marsala Tea

Deserts

Ah.. my tummy filled with yummy food :)
Heehee :D

Christmas Street Party | Countdown

2007-02-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

Christmas Street Party | Christmas Countdown 2006

So overdue.. hehe.. but nevertheless ;)

Supper I had after that at Mohsin

Ah... it was a good night ;)

Day Five | MTR Hop

2007-02-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

Day Five | MTR Hop

With the gung-ho-ness in us, we went MTR hopping, jumped in and out of every stop !

Foooooooh.. Tiredness ! So penat our legs also ached...
But loads of FUN ;)

Not much we did on the 6th day since we were heading back.. hehe..
Stopped by at Macau.. but it was a RUSH around the town centre...
Got scolded and stared at by rude people there.. scary !

So the end of my TRIP !
Finally I'm done posting my pictures haha :)
*happie*

Day Five | MTR Hop

2007-01-26T21:34:00.000+08:00

Day Five | MTR Hop

With the gung-ho-ness in us, we went MTR hopping, jumped in and out of every stop !

Day Four | Two Special Places

2007-01-26T00:01:00.000+08:00

Day Four | Two Special Places

Woke up early in the morning to head to the fishing village, Tai-O. Have to naik bus that cost is 11HK$. Yah, 11 bucks for a bus ride !

But the bus ride took about an hour ! Passing by some many tens of stop !
What we saw :

Out of the Kampung-ness there was civilization

Kayu Balak

The Wishing Tree that is always featured in most Hong Kong dramas , where people go throw an orange together with their wishes written on pieces of paper.

But we didn't get to throw la..however was FORCED by a lady that looked really scary ! She appeared out of no where with a raincoat and a straw hat. Kept chasing us, forcing us to buy the papers from her. Force us to write something on it. In the end, I ended up writing. Some nonsense. Haha. Belasah only...

Rain rain rain. Not only was it cold, it was raining like crazy ! We ended up at the Tong Sui place again, hehe ;)

Then we went jalan-jalan. Took some night shots :)

And these were for supper ! HAHA !

Good night.. hehe :p

Day Three | A Trip to Wan Chai

2007-01-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

Day Three | Wan Chai

Inspired by food, Hong Kong delicacies that is we took a train to Wan Chai where the Milk Teas were, where the Polo Buns were, where FOOD is paradise ! Haha :)

Advertisements on the trains

Where there were a lot of SHOES

Ouhkay, rest first.. Breathe !

Day Two | Too Ambitious

2007-01-25T23:26:00.000+08:00

Day Two | Too Ambitious

After eating at the Tong Sui shop, we thought we'd try to walk from Nathan Road to Mong Kok. Which was IMPOSSIBLE !

So kononnya la we thought we would make it. Gosh. Mad la. Really really really too far liao ! Please do not try to walk, as Nathan Road does not seem as near as it is showed on the map ! It was actually about 3 to 4 MTR Train stops away. Almost like walking from Ampang Park to Pudu Raya bypassing Bukit Bintang. Nutts !

In the end we gave up. Took the train. Haha. But these were some of the stuff we saw along our long lost journey :P

Ladies' Street

The good night drink

Day Two | Tong Sui

2007-01-25T13:18:00.000+08:00

Day Two | Tong Sui

So we took a bus down back to town.
Continued shopping on our favourite streets , haha.

There, was where I bought most of my stuff hehe.
The ties for the guys, some random stuff for the girls. Tie designs were simply amazingly colourfully done ! If I was guy, I'd love to have them ALL.

Then came the most difficult time of the day, to look for food.
Most of the time, it just slips our mind then we haven't eaten, hehe.
This time, we bumped into something.

The Tong Sui shop. It was a fancy Chinese Cuisine restaurant that specialized in 'tong sui', deserts. Chinese delicacies that is. Mmmm yums !

The Free Pot of Tea

ToothPick

Sweet Potato Soup

Sweet Dried Soybean Milk Sheet Soup

Steamed Mushroom & Chicken Rice

Char Siew Bao

And the Happy Me

*BurpPPp

Day Three | The Streets

2007-01-25T11:49:00.000+08:00

Day Three | The Streets

We kinda lost our way trying to find Mambo at Causeway Bay.. in the end we bumped into Victoria Park.. if only Malaysia had such parks, it'll be brilliant to go for a run everyday !

Weird how they have sales' discounts , not only 10%, 20% etc. but they have 55% ? Haha.

After wondering around Wan Chai, we moved on to find the Gold Fish Market that is always featured on Hong Kong Chinese soap series. FOUND it , with some help of Joanne's parents.

People didn't look very friendly at most parts of Hong Kong, so I didn't dare snap to many pictures. Didn't want a gang of men coming after us ! Eh, even women there, can scold a whole lot out of you !

After walking the whole stretch of Gold Fish Market, we stopped by for Tong Sui again. Hehe. But this one's not that nice... Famous though, it's called , Hui Lau San. Very similar to our Kei Tak Sik here.

They didn't really allow us to take pictures inside the shop, so I had to quickly take some lousy shots while they weren't looking !

Walk some more. We headed towards Temple Street. Another market there that sold a lot of random stuff. Along the way, we stopped by for Yau Char Koay, that cost a BOMB.
2.50 HK$ would be our RM1.25 roughly. I only remember paying 60 cents for that fried thing in KL.

Arrived at Temple Street. Didn't buy much stuff... Took a short stroll.. hehe. Headed to SOGO instead, for Jo to get her new pair of Sketchers ;) Ouhkay, she is as giler kasut as I am ! Haha :p

Ouh so tired.. carried so many bags looking an auntie-case..

And since there's no mamak there, we had to settle for these as supper.. YUMS :P

Sorry ar the pictures not very nice.. hehe, but trust me, it was quite a delicious supper ;)

Day Two | Ocean Park

2007-01-25T00:41:00.000+08:00

Day Two | Ocean Park

Only a little glimpse of it..
Didn't go in cos not enough time..
So we stood outside and got some shots ! Haha.

What we saw on our way up to Ocean Park.

***

Wasted money going up and coming down...
So in the end we went back to our favourite roads, Hankow Road, Canton Road and Haiphong Road. My favourite shopping spots !

Day Two | Chapter One

2007-01-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

Day Two | Chapter One

After raining for a whole day on the day we arrived, it was bright sunshine the next day ! And I was so happy to see sun rays :P

Got ready to explore Hong Kong. Simply love the weather, as the sun shone on us while the cool breeze blew.

Caught the mini bus and off we headed to the MTR station. Bumpy bus ride, but enjoyable.

The blind men paths were just so nicely done, 10 times better those in Malaysia !

We stopped here and started our journey

The long long long subway that we had to take to get across the road, otherwise, get bang down by cars !

Hong Kong Cultural Center

Maracas

SOGO

What I ate | Beef Soup Noodles

What Joanne ate | Dry Beef Noodles

Next up, Ocean Park :P Which we didn't enter.. but only had some shots here and there. Couldn't make it in time ma...

*skippity hoppity ladeelalala

Happy WernJun

2007-01-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

With Glee

After suffocating for almost eight months, I've finally found what I wanted and been longing for all these while !

Those who have been listening to my moaning and groaning will understand what I'm talking about. Today, I am really very very happy and glad.

*gosh I wish I could HUG*

She's jumping with glee. She's rejoicing deep down inside. It'll be the best birthday gift this year.

Couldn't have done it without my Father in Heaven. Thanks a million.
But no matter how much I thank Him, it will never measure what He has been giving me and gave me.

I am so H-A-P-P-Y.

*he'd be able to understand*

Tonight, I will sleep with a smiling face.
Tonight, I will sleep with peace.
Tonight, I will be sleeping with a grin.

*she puts on BIG smile*

Good Night everyone. Good Night dear.

Happy New Year

2007-01-18T17:18:00.000+08:00

Date 18 January 2007

18 days have passed into the new year.
I haven't even wished a single person, a very Happy New Year. Except watch night service that night, a little preoccupied, thoughts swaying, but managed to stay focused on the piano notes I had to correctly press so the church could sing in tune.

Uncle Russ was chairing that night. He always does it the best. Sinking every word into each heart that night, it always makes me stop and breathe and sometimes tear a little.

Wasn't really looking forward to this year. Nothing much to look forward to anyway. Same old days passing, same old job I'm at, same messy room that I have yet to thoroughly clean. The only thing that would be different would my age.

Shucks. A year older, but I wonder if I'm a tiny bit wiser. I really wonder.

It only sunk into me few days ago that it s 2007.
I remember talking on the phone while I was in Langkawi, thinking that it was still 2006, directing that person to a wrong archive where he could search for photos. So embarrassing.

2006. Was a meaningful year for. Don't know about you, but it definitely drew a lot of beautiful pictures and painted a lot of memories that I may never be able to erase. I suppose, good memories are meant for safe keeping. I treasure every one of it.

2006. Made me grew to be a stronger person. I feel like my patience increased.
I thought I'd never survive the year, but I made it. With glee. I smiled the most and cried the most. God was good to me, and still is, He let me smile more than ever, overwhelmingly allowed smiles to overshadow my sadness.

2006. I am glad and grateful that so many people came into my messed up life.
Never regretted knowing them, always cherishing them in my heart, keeping them as close as ever.

2006. It sort of flew pass me in a blink of an eye. Whoosh ! Gone. It felt like it was Christmas yesterday, I had to start preparing for Christmas Street Party again.
Except, I was braver this year. Managed a solo here and there, which I would never be able to pull off last year ! I thank God for that.

18 days have passed this year. I had a little progress. People whom haven't been talking to me are talking to me again. I smile to myself every night. Trust me if you were me, you'd smile too.

Time to knock it into my head that it's 2007 !
Time to stop dreaming.
Have to kick that butt. Keep it moving forward and not looking at the past, lamenting every second of it.

I cherish those who are still by my side, constantly cheering me on. Keeping my laughter continuous so I don't grow wrinkles faster than I am supposed to !
Thanks dear, I long to say. Thank you God, I say that everyday.

My aspirations to be a writer has not died off. Some people say, it will eventually die off when you reach a certain age. Which I refused to believe. Lets just see how far I can run, and how much I can stand. The criticisms I get from every walks of life. Sometimes, they make want to sleep forever. Sometimes, it drives me up the wall, making me stand up stronger, fight them off, proving to them, life's not all about forcing yourself to do something you don't like.

I may sound so darn stubborn, but I don't mind being stubborn for while. Commitments I do have, but it doesn't mean that I have to forgo everything else.

But I tell myself, I will survive. Even if I only a penny left to spend. I will pray for strength to survive.

Some random friend bumped into me one day last year, and said,"Where have your bloody confidence went?" Coming from a friend whom I hardly knew from school, that sounded rather scary.

My resolution : To find this confidence that I've lost. Never to *sigh* at situations no matter how much they suck. Find a way to solve them and not just sit there and cry.

Tell myself, I can. Stop saying dunno. Walk with my head up high and stooping so low that I can't see my feet anymore.

*She smiles to herself.

And I wish you all the same. Keep close to God. You will find the answer to your miseries. *hugs*

The Peak Day one | Chapter Three

2007-01-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Chapter Three | Day One

The Peak

On the way there, I stumbled upon the magnificently high-rises that we often watch and marvel on the tele, fu-yoh, that building so tall.. haha

And I, couldn't believe myself, that I was actually standing right at the bottom of it !

Riding on the tram wasn't very pleasant.. the hill was so steep ! And air pressure. But I still managed to steal a few shots , hehe.

So hard to get a still shot from where I was. Open air, with strong breeze blowing me side ways ! Seriously, I couldn't hold my camera still cos the wind was so strong !

So this the results of my rookie shots :P

Took a bus down.. hehe..

Lepas tu, hungry... so we bought bit of junk.. My hungry stomach.. hehe ;p

There was this bunch of musicians from Singapore. Made a mess of the hotel lobby every NIGHT ! Have to rebut lift with them some more..

Til then, for the next.
Finally, Day Two !

Chapter Two | Day Two

2006-12-20T16:16:00.000+08:00

Chapter Two | Day One

Felt like everything was so gigantic to me.
The skyscrapers and the mega-huge malls ! Its almost like; one Louis Vuitton equaled to a Carrefour without its parking lot ! Haha, size only lar..

I was so distracted by the trams cos media there were simply very amplified. Fell in love with the ads immediately ! Explained why there are so many shots of adverts. Its almost like living in a magazine ! Flip you'd see Body Shop. Flip you'd see Coach. Flip you'd see Starbucks. Flip you'd see Chivas Regal. Hehe.

Pedder Red in Hong Kong. Go check the one in KLCC, you'll know why I took a picture of the one in HK.

Actually we were trying to look for dinner, but everything was so expensive and we couldn't read Chinese. So, as always, short of time, we ended up at Mcd's. Good thing Mcd's there tasted really good ! Yummmmmm :p

Chanel

After getting lost for a while, distracted by Christmas lights, we met up with Joanne's parents. Headed to The Peak tram.

Next Episode | The Peak | Day One

Chapter One | Day One

2006-12-19T17:26:00.000+08:00

Chapter One | Day One

6:27 am

Rushed to the airport but in the end the flight got delayed a little.
Imagine, we forgot to scan our bags. Already late. Had to 'patah balik' to scan our bags before we could check in our luggages.

Anyway, we safely boarded the plane.
Almost couldn't believe that we were flying to HONGKONG ! Two girls. Blur case didn't even know where to get our tickets. Haha.

Take off.

Arrived at the Macau Airport. Took a 53 Macau Dollars cab to the ferry pier which only took like 5 minutes ! Then took a 154 Macau Dollars ferry ride across the ocean to HongKong. Argh. So expensive !

Finally reached !

Had lunch at Deas Voux Road, I think. Heehee.
Had my first bowl of Wan Ton Mee, that cost $HK25. Giler... But good thing it tasted good.

Then headed to Mexan Harbour Hotel. Where my beautifully furnished room was located ;)

Scenes from my window

Sun-rays

Wan Tonn Mee

High Rises | Everywhere

My room & bathroom

On the minibus

My first cuppa Starbucks

Wrong direction

Next | Chapter Two | Day One

10 Hours

2006-12-09T10:39:00.000+08:00

10

In 10 hour's time, I'd be off to Hong Kong !
Still there's loads of work to be done.
But wernjun's too excited to think of work at moment.
Hurm.. how do I fight my excitement and at the same time finish so much work.

Don't have a choice. Die also have to finish.

The past few days had been good and bad to me.
Good I was bit lifted up. Least I know there is still someone out there who still cares. Bad, work has not been treating me good.

Guess taking a fever leave was good.
Heated up with a temperature, but don't know how I managed to have fun.
Ah, thanks dear.

Just when my mind was about to collapse it was filled with something else that made me feel better. In a lot of ways, if I was him, I think I would've died. Proud of him.

Yup in 10 hours' time, I'd be flying off with Joanne to the land 3 hours away. Like going to Penang pulak.

Wasn't very excited to go the past few days, since I was so down at work. Suddenly today, the excitement just came ! Dunno, just suddenly woke up and til now, trying to knock it into my head that I am going to HongKong.

Can't wait to see the goldfishes and I dunno, the multitudes of CHINESE?
AS mush as I don't like their rudeness, I am going there.

Gonna miss loads of people !

Only gonna be gone for 6 days...but yea, I will still miss.

Til then, take care you.
And everyone else, have an early Blessed Christmas from me ;)

Chopticks

2006-12-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

Chopsticks

I shot. She chop.
Yummy lunch at Little Penang Cafe.
My ponteng days always spent very wisely.
Eh, for real.

Last ponteng-ed, saw my cousins who came from Singapore whom I haven't seen in ages.
Yesterday, I did a good deed. Had loads of fun even though I was down feverish.

So, chopsticks it is :

Barp... What delicious Curry Laksa they had.. I love Little Penang Cafe. Specially the KLCC one, teehee.

Red Ribbon Day

2006-12-04T02:05:00.000+08:00

Red Ribbon Day

I tagged along. I was navigator.
So there we were.
Celebrating Red Ribbon Day.

Shaky hands | But my Favourite Shot

Non-shaky hands | Not so nice shot

A group shot | WeyMin, Can't remember her name, JinPei, LeiJin & Wey Hong

A nicer shot

I have no idea what time it ended.
I was dead tired.
Almost fell asleep while I was there.
Probably cos it just wasn't my kind of place.
Made me felt so down the whole night...
But forced a little laugh. The company was fine...They still smiled at me even though I looked so sour.
But I really rather listen to Mia Palencia at No Black Tie.
Hm...

Banana Leaf

2006-12-04T01:34:00.000+08:00

Banana Leaf | Nirwana Maju @ Telawi, Bangsar

This delicious Banana Leaf rice. My favourite at the moment.
And the teh tarik, ROCKS.
The Marsala chicken, the curry mutton, the vegetable varieties, the fried chicken with dried curry, the sambal egg and MUCH more !

Take a stroll down that road in the day, you'd see a multitude of people queuing up for a place to have that spicy hot yummy banana leaf rice !
When its night, its still operates as a normal mamak, only thing is, there would still be a multitude of people having their teh tarik !

weymin's

2006-11-30T12:09:00.000+08:00

Just Before

Dinner was good.
Hehe, what we ate and what they drank !
Weymin had two drinks ALL by herself!
Camel-NESS !

JasmineTea | Ice Lemon Tea | Fresh Orange

Sweet & Sour Chicken

Asam Fish Fillet

Heehee

Blow | She's 22

Smiling with her cake

Blur but nicer than the other one

My favourite picture

Blur | But I like

How I wish everyday was as happy..
These are the only few people that made me laugh throughout primary school and high school. Now that we're 22, we've grown, but still the same. Remembering each other's characteristics and what nonsense we used to do when we were younger.
I would definitely cherish them for as long as I live.
Best budds ever !

weymin's

2006-11-27T02:10:00.000+08:00

Her 22nd | At Alexis

Hehe, delayed post.

I almost forgot it was on the 17th. Always thought it was on the 16th. Blur me.
Had dinner at Amy's favourite place in Great Eastern Mall i.e. Cozy House.
Yummy Asam Fish, Salted Vegetable soup, Fried Rice and Hainanese Chicken Rice.

Wanted to just bring her there to have a taste of smooth samba jazz, hehe.
Farid Ali & friends were playing that night.
WeyMin had Lemon Grass Tea, Amy and YeeFun had Peppermint Tea and I had my Ice Cappucino with Ice cream. In middle we had a piece of Tiramisu with one candle.

Well I hope the rest enjoyed that night, cos I did. Though my mind was wondered off to somewhere, but I just had great fun.

Nothing beats hanging out with high school friends, laughing at our own stupidity back when we were younger. I really love and missed those times.

I miss tonnes of it.

Smiles you could never repeat. Love you guys !

Amy | WeyMin

YeeFun | WeyMin

Happy Birthday to you WeyMin

Starbucks Turned Red

2006-11-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

Christmas Red

Just couldn't resist the Red cup.
Just couldn't resist the Toffee Nut Latte.
Just couldn't resist the take-away cup.

So I downed the latte with a tiny straw.
While having a piece of Gingerbread Loaf sharing it with WeyMin, sipping the yummy latte listening to Christmas jazzed tunes and reading OFFTheEDGE - I actually have all the songs that were playing :p

Starbucks became RED.
Yah. It turned RED.
The logo is still green lar. Hehe.

The Clouds were So puffy

2006-11-20T21:53:00.000+08:00

Puffy Clouds

The clouds were awesome yesterday.
Just couldn't help but capture the puffy clouds in my camera since I have poor memory.

Saw some 'mat salleh's' snapping at something.
So I followed-suit.

Simply awesome.

Green Balloons

2006-11-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

Green & White

Was at The Curve again the recent Saturday.
Took a walk.

When it was time to go home, I saw this !

And when I see balloons, it really makes me happy !
Cos I love balloons.
The guy who was pumping the balloons probably thought, that girl's SO happy.
Cos my face was immediately painted with a smile. A smile so big that I probably looked like the happiest girl on earth that day.

My friend said, 'You're so easily satisfied'
Well, that's me. That's why I can never understand why people can say I am fussy.
Why when I'm such a simple girl, I still am so hard to satisfy?
Tak faham.

But the balloons rocked !

Dream

2006-11-19T04:12:00.000+08:00

Dream

Its 4:09am.
Sitting here, wondering if I would get what I want to achieve in life.
Well besides having a house over looking the sea with my loved ones, I believe there is more to life than that.

I've never been able to accept the fact that I chose to take Journalism as my major.
Always dreaded bout even thinking that I'm doing something that I totally have no clue about.

I remember accidentally watching shows with relation to what I was studying.
That show And I Hate You So, starring Kelly Chen and Aaron Kwok. Somehow, I got my inspirations from Kelly of what a journalist is. Loved that show anyway.

And every single show I watched back then somehow or rather had connections with Journalism? Freaky. But that was how much it was haunting me.

Til the day we were asked to choose where we wanted to go for Industrial Attachment, I was still dreading the fact that I would be a journalist to be.
I didn't want to be where I was sent to. Whined and complained so much on the first week.

But somehow when I was done with I.A. I had some weird fire burning in me that I wanted to be a journalist after all !

Gosh..

And right now, I'm chasing something that I want so much, but just simply can't find an inlet to it...

Few people I want to thank :
Aunty Jacky and Joanne. The greatest encouragers.

Most importantly, my Father in Heaven for giving me strength to pull through every hurdle I came across.

Just keep praying for me.

All

2006-11-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

M-eat-ting

Randomly got called to join a meeting.
No relations to me.
The reason was, since you can write well, you take the minutes la.

What choice I had...?
Thought I wanted some time to lay-off and chill.
Just to think things over.

I really want to just S-T-O-N-E.

But watching them somehow made me smile a lil today.
Wish I was as laid back as them.

Khairy was just happily eating choclate, Huzai having a camera frenzy, Talib blur as always, Faruq look quiet but actually dying to talk .. Hm.. today, Nazri's rather quiet.

*sighs*

I slumped in my sit.
And it started to rain.
I wondered more, how am I going to catch a cab to go home.
In the end I got offered a ride. To be sent all the way HOME !

Back to my room.
Back to thinking again.
Wish my brains would just stop thinking when it reaches home.
Really wish it did.

I really want to get my life back :(

Come To Jesus

2006-11-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

Untitled Hymn (Come To Jesus)
by Chris Rice

Weak and wounded sinner
Lost and left to die
O, raise your head, for love is passing by
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus and live!

Now your burden's lifted
And carried far away
And precious blood has washed away the stain, so
Sing to Jesus
Sing to Jesus
Sing to Jesus and live!

And like a newborn baby
Don't be afraid to crawl
And remember when you walk
Sometimes we fall...so
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus and live!

Sometimes the way is lonely
And steep and filled with pain
So if your sky is dark and pours the rain, then
Cry to Jesus
Cry to Jesus
Cry to Jesus and live!

O, and when the love spills over
And music fills the night
And when you can't contain your joy inside, then
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus and live!

And with your final heartbeat
Kiss the world goodbye
Then go in peace, and laugh on Glory's side, and
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus and live!

***
It speaks to me so much...
I cried listening to it...

***

The song above - A dedication to Aunty Jen Peng.

One of the greatest I've known.
She saw me grow up, since I was in kindergarten.
I still remember looking up at her daughter, June.
She plays the piano really well.

It felt like it was only yesterday that I said I wanted to take a picture with her and Uncle Kam Hong, just a few days before they went back to Hong Kong to continue their mission.

It was Chinese New Year. We went for a day of random visiting.
So Lydia's house was the accidental house where we didn't decide to go in the beginning, but since it was only next road to JongChern's we went to help them finish some food.

Looking back at how happy a couple she and uncle KamHong were. It touched me great.
I recall going to church every Sunday from Sunday School til I was much older.

Til one day I found out that she was down with cancer.
But I knew, everyone knew, she would be able to fight it.
And she won.

I just didn't understand why it attacked her again.
Just as she was beginning to pick up with life.
Just as she was smiling once again.

Everything seemed downhill. I never thought she'd leave that fast...
But I guess, God knows best...

I will always remember the smile on her face when she saw me that day.
'You're all grown up' with that she gave me a hug.
That smile, was the warmest and still is.
When I asked to have a picture taken with them, Uncle Kam Hong actually said, 'We could adopt another daughter since we already have two!' - I was touched...

I will miss her. Yes I will.
And I know too, that she will be looking down on me while she is resting in heaven.

Looking Forward

2006-11-14T02:38:00.000+08:00

*_*

Pressing on Toward the Goal

12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead
14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
15All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. 16Only let us live up to what we have already attained.

*She hopes to smile soon...

Glued

2006-11-08T00:32:00.000+08:00

Glued

2000 over pages for me to browse.
2000 over pages of creative photography.
2000 over pages for me to drool over.
Erm, that's multiplied with the many other sites I have yet to visit.

I think I'm glued-stuck to stock photography sites.

Just simply enjoy staring that photographs posted on the sites and gaining more and more inspiration to capture moments or maybe just FOOD.

I have a thing for white space. Any photograph or print ads that has ample amount of white spaces would immediately catch my attention.

Hm...somehow, I really love the camera and I really enjoy food.
I call myself rubbish bin. That's cause I am a 'DBKL' for most friends who out for a meal with me. Always end up finishing all their left overs. See why I can't fit into my clothes properly.

***

Today, I'm slightly lifted.
I am still down.
But thanks to that one hour conversation I had with Aunt Jacky, I'm a bit better.

The way she describes and looks at things, its simply amazing. Its just so her and unique.

I remember her telling me, 'God works uniquely, not weirdly. Its you who works weirdly' That was after I told her, 'I guess, God works in very weird ways...'

She also said something bout my job right now is a just side dish and to get to the main dish, I have to work harder to achieve it. She reminded me to be happy with the side dish now, as its a happy side dish.

Half way through, she asked if I would rather prefer the happy side dish now, or would I prefer the cruel main dish. We both just burst out laughing.

I find it amazing, at how I can talk and laugh with just anyone.
Touched at times. Once Aunt Jacky said that she really found it very interesting to talk to me as I managed to connect to what she was relating to. For our age gap that is of vast difference, she found me amazing.

That made me remember a long long winded chat with my bestfriend's grandma. Though I couldn't really understand what she was talking about due to my incompetence with the Chinese language, I had a couple of laughs here and there. I cried quite a lot at her funeral...

Laughing and joking with the maids of my many friends. I felt like an in sight to a whole new world. An in-sight to their world as maids. Eh, I get free head massages whenever I have head-cracking migraines.

I still miss the company I used to have on the cellphone. Its almost like losing my bestfriend... :(
Well he did kinda replaced my bestfriend. He really did. I have faith in him, that he will one day be the joyful one I once knew and will be happy with his life once again. Take care dear

Cinnamon Latte

2006-11-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

CinnamonLatte

Since the promo of the Cinnamon Streussel Latte that Starbucks had, I've been dreaming of drinking it again...
When they had that promo in March, I think for almost a few months, I drank bout two cups in a week !

Yah, that's how much I like Cinnamon.
Then they stopped it.
Missed it since.

Still remember drinking it while I had to study for my finals.
Sitting in Starbucks, writing my own notes, sipping the spice filled drink.
Ouh so yummy !

Friday, randomly stepped into Dome with two colleagues.
After a hard day's labour of lifting wooden cabinets, my shoulders are aching now. Getting numb at times. Gosh.

When I saw the drink's menu, saw Cinnamon Latte, immediately wanted to try it !
And I didn't regret ! So yummy ! The milky creamy taste of that single shot of espresso topped up with frothed milk,stirred with a sprinkile of Cinnamon !

But it caused me a whole night. Yeah, wernjun can never sleep after drinking coffee. Unless if I was dead dead tired.
But I was happy that I know to find my favourite latte !

I can still taste it now , hehe.

Just Felt Like It

2006-11-04T04:12:00.000+08:00

Just Felt Like It

Melaka

2006-11-04T01:52:00.000+08:00

Stop & Look

Random thoughts while I was in Malacca.
The place brings back so much memories.
Memories that would never repeat itself.
No matter how much I wish.

That Portuguese restaurant we went to where both our hairs almost got blown out into the sea. Both wearing the same spaghetti top we both had bought together few days before we went to Malacca. The restaurant, built on stilts, which meant we were on top of a rough sea. The sea breeze was simply SO strong. Regardless, we had a great meal of traditional Portuguese delights.

I miss my best friend.

The last I went to Malacca was a trip to the Zoo to complete a Broadcast project.
It was almost exactly a year, now I'm back there again...

Malacca re-visit.

MayLee & Isaac

Read what it says

Our first meal

Felt like another world

Erm : Durian Cendol : Not nice

Leelaa

I love the sunshine

Always thought carrots came from here

Chevrolet : 1957

Postcard shot

Mahkota Parade had Kopi Chin

Suddenly so breezy

Celup

Going home

Ouh.. so tired.. but, thanks maylee... *huggs*

Smile

2006-10-31T00:03:00.000+08:00

Smile

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Summer Wind

2006-10-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

Wet Hair

Too bad Malaysia doesn't have four seasons.
Otherwise, I guess I'd be enjoying it so much.

I think I could sit here forever playing the same song over and over again.
Right now, while I'm writing this, am listening to Summer Wind.

Ouh yah, that was the song that Sharizan poked fun at me.
Regardless.

I still like the song, a lot.

***

Waiting for my hair to dry, suddenly two thoughts came into my mind.

First, MeiFern.
Suddenly she texted me this morning. Couldn't reply her though. My phone died.
So I called her instead.
Well of course I missed listening to her funny laugh and her funny commonsense. Never Fails to make me laugh. I guess it was a good morning call. Cheered me up a lil. Also kept me thinking the whole day.
But I was glad that she texted. Touched, the fact that I disappeared for so long, she began to wonder what happened to me. In her words,'I haven't seen you in ages!'
Quite true for that fact.

Then I replied Edith's e-mail.
In a lot of ways, she's quite a random friend.
Met her last year at one of my assignments and kept bumping into her eversince for several other assignments.
I guess God made everyone to be one of a kind.
She could be quiet at times and sometimes she could talk quite a lot.
She is a nice person though.

I remember her buying me a drink earlier this year when I went to interview her for my Final Year Project. She was so willing to help me.
I was having a fever that day.
I rememeber seeing her after I met up with him.
She insisted that I drank 100 Plus. To reduce fever.
Then she sent me to TV3 to interview another guy.
From Bangsar to TV3 !
Yeah, I owe loads.

I spoke to her today thru Gmail chat.
First question she asked was, did I apply to theSun.
My heart sank.
I just hate it when people ask me if I'm there of if I applied to go there.
As much as I want to go there, I have no idea how to get into there.
I asked her,"What makes you think that they'd want to take me in..."
Thinking to myself.
*sighs*
She said, "My dear, you will never know if you don't try.."

Thing is with me, I'm too chicken to accept a 'NO'.
I'm just too scared. Of I don't know what.
I remember Tamarai asking, infact pestering me to write to the editors.
So did Jamie and Sashi.
I remember seeing loads more of other people, asking me to write back,
In Jamie and Sashi's words,"Come and visit us lah." "Migrate migrate". That was bumping into them at InDesign 2006, Kuala Lumpur.

Shy. Scared. Intimidated. Lost and Confused. Those are the few words that would describe me now.

Finding out that Winnie is in The Edge, just doesn't makes things better. My childhood friend is in The Edge. She worked in USA for quite a while. *sighs*
Where am I today?
Feel like such a failure.

I want something so much. Not even close to anything.

:(

As much as I try to forget, things just keep coming and coming, reminding me...I don't know for the better or for worse.

I really just want to get a place anywhere...too bad I can't write chinese...

*sighs*

:(

Summer Wind

2006-10-28T01:08:00.000+08:00

Summer Wind

The summer wind, came blowin' in - from across the sea
It lingered there, so warm and fair - to walk with me
All summer long, we sang a song - and strolled on golden sand
Two sweethearts, and the summer wind

Like painted kites, those days and nights - went flyin' by
The world was new, beneath a blue - umbrella sky
Then softer than, a piper man - one day it called to you
And I lost you, to the summer wind

The autumn wind, and the winter wind - have come and gone
And still the days, those lonely days - go on and on
And guess who sighs his lullabies - through nights that never end
My fickle friend, the summer wind

*God only made one of him

rainbow

2006-10-28T00:36:00.000+08:00

Beautiful

Wish I had more time to capture the rainbow !

My office, where it's located, had the best view !

***

Yesterday's sky was just so clear.
But I was on the train...
So I only had my phone with me...
But the clear skies, simply magnificent.

So puffy like white cotton candy. Ah, wish you could see them too *smiles*