what God gave me today?

wHat God GavE mE tOday ?

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Pure Random

Two days she didn't touch her phone to text him.
For her, its quite an achievement.

So she was tossing and turning on the bed on a Saturday morning - 0230 up til 0600.
Few more hours time, parents and sister will wake up to get ready to church.

Just felt so disturbed... Brains kept racing to don't know where. Just Couldn't sleep.
She tried to switch on the computer to look at it a little longer, trying to make her eyes tired, but just they just won't close. They just won't.

Til 0600, she finally slept. But awaken by the alarm clock which went off by itself.
Frustrated and irritated. Turned it off, tried to fall back asleep.
Dozed off finally at 1030.

But awaken again by mom at 1130. Felt like locking the room doot at times.

So she tossed and turned til bout 12 noon. Finally gave up, called up a friend to ask her for lunch. Not exactly hungry but just felt like talking some stress away...

Out for lunch. Went back to friend's house to play with the dog and cats. Favourite furry animals. Watched repeats of Project Runway.
Forced to go for captainball. But didn't play much.

Haven't eaten for almost a week. So legs felt weak. She never felt that way...
Guess from the lack of sleep and food, that was the result.

Came back at about 1830. Took bath. Then laid on the bed trying to dry hair.
Slowly, surprisingly dozing off... Quickly grabbed a pillow and dozed of totally...
Squishing the green frog...

Woke up at bout 2120. Cos of the awkward position , squishing green frog not to forget the wet hair.
Still dazed , tried to get back to sleep..
Suddenly heard something almost familiar. Wondering why was the radio on with a favourite song - JohnMayer, No Such Thing.
But the radio wasn't switched on. It was the phone. His ringer ID.

Picked up the phone, read the message,'Hey...Buat apa??'.
Was almost happy, but still recovering from hurts and anger. Hessitated to reply.

Youknow, when you've just awaken from deep slumber, your brains can't really coordinate. But told him anyway that she just woke up.

As always he replied with guilt if it was his message woke her up. She convinced him she really just got up.

And he called ! He actually called !
It was almost magic. Cos he almost never calls.
She picked it up sounded as dead as ever. Heard a familiar deep voice.. always loved his deep voice..
Weirdly, he sounded so cheerful and in a mood to talk so much... But he was talking an almost dead gurl.. no energy at all.. But he didn't mind.
Line got cut off suddenly. She tried calling back but couldn't get through. Few minutes later it got through and he actually was trying to call back. He offered anyway to call back. Which she only answered bluntly, "Up to you".
And he did call back. Talked for a while and the line got cut off. She gave up. So she called back anyway with the limited amount of credit left in her phone.

Found out in the end that he was nearby her house.
He asked if she had eaten, which she hadn't. He asked her to eat, but she refused..no appetite and just not in the mood...

After juggling for a while, he finally offered to bring her out for dinner. He said he had already eaten but he would accompany her.

He didn't want to bring her in his car, cos he said it was too ugly and no air condition.. He said she'd surely laugh..

So she decided, park at her house, they'd walk...
Paced up and down the road, trying to decide if he should drive.. She stopped in the middle of the road. Wating for him to decide..
But in the end, he offered to drive...overcoming himself..

Reached the mamak.. he asked her to order drink and food for herself, cos he wanted to go toilet..
When he came back, the mamak asked him what he wanted. He ordered, and asked the mamak whether she ordered food? the mamak answered what her order was and gave a puzzled face..

He still didn't believe that she ordered.. cos she usually refuses to eat when he's around.. He asked again.. 'You ordered already?' Which she nodded...

The whole time he was so nice. So weird.. when her food came he actually adjusted her drink so she could have space to move her hands to eat.. No fork and spoon, he went take for her.. When she asked for curry, he adjusted her drink and pushed the curry nearer to her..
She felt like some little kid... He watched her eat the whole time... almost in silence... and weirdly smiling...to himself..

As always.. before she could realise anything, he paid.. left for home..
He kept asking if she was full, whether she wanted to buy some more stuff..
Passing by 7-11 , which he said, 'Dunno, you want to stop by 7-11 or something?'
Just to satisfy his curiousity, she just tembak say, 'Yah I want to buy drink...'
He asked,' What you want? I get it for you.'
'Nevermind I'll get it myself..' But he insisted..'Tell me la what you want.. I buy for you ..'
Was just too shy to say anything.. just told him that may not be able to find it..

So in the end she walked down to get it herself...

She wanted to go to my favourite swing.. but she dind't dare ask...
Reached home, she popped him a message..saying she wanted to go for a swing..
The reply was weird.. He said, 'Gatal.. now baru nak cakap.. wanted to see also your fav swing..next time k?'

She didn't even ask , was worried tho, cos his car was in quite bad condition.. cannot start properly.. cannot change gear properly.. That's why he was so shy to fetch her in it.. So she told him to drive carefully..but when he reached home, he texted her to say he was home and asked her to sleep...'Home ady. You tdo yah?'

She could only feel one thing... touched...

Don't know.. she managed to get him out of 'sight' for two days, which was an achievement.. but just when she felt a slight relief, he appeared again.. by himself..

Usually if she doesn't talk to him the whole day, she'd at least say goodnite.. but this time, she forced herself not to text him at all...

Before she got down the car, he said,'Goodnite...'in a very soft voice..

Today, he looked so good.. happy for first.. handsome for second. Dunno why he kept staring at me smiling..first time she saw him with sleeveless.. heh, just a gurl's admiration, so muscular.. she always thought he was very skinny and lembik wan..
First time he saw her with short pants also..

The whole night out, so weird . . . she couldn't understand . . .
***
Sorry.. didn't eat for so long..
But I'm ouhkay.. slowly eating..
I promise I will take care.. not because he texted me today.. but I told myself, I will be stronger and will show him, who my God really is... to be a living testimony that survived the hurts and anger caused by many... I will..

siaosiao @ 1:53 AM

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