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Wednesday, August 09, 2006

You Said

You won't do the same as what was done to you.
I hope you keep your word. I really do.

I really hate living this life.
That's why I wanna just sleep it off.
That's the only time I can stop my brains from working too hard.
They really need a rest from all these.

I really hate walking into Watsons or even the sight of it, reminds me of you.
Shit the paper stands are every where.
Not forgetting the five-trucks-in-a-row incident, when I finally got you off my mind for a while, the trucks HAD to appear, zooming right in front or me.
I don't want to see NOKIA ads. I don't even want to see Alliance Kosmetics stuff. But I'm only an ordinary girl, having to use cosmetics by them.
I'm beginning to even hate the sight of the signboard that says Plaza Damaz.

Both days at Jazz Fest. I was reminded of you. I almost didn't enjoy Jazz Odyssey and John Thomas even tho they rocked that nite. The whole of Plaza Mont Kiara gave me memories.

I hate it when someone mentions Ampang Park or KL Sentral.

I even see you at the lrt benches.

I have to stop at Dang Wangi to get a train change to BB. That spot you sat on, I sometimes see you there. Every time the train passes by Taman Jaya, I will, WILL have the shittiest feeling.

Music's my passion, after the passion I have for human beings. You share the same passion but I don't understand why you are who you've become today.

Just yesterday, someone invited me to for tea. I said,'You crazy ah? The whole world would be there? Duwan lah, shy.' She said that not much people go down for tea anymore..so come !

If it wasn't for you, I would've just walked right up. Gosh. I missed that place so much. I missed every single person I knew there. I even miss the guards downstairs that used to call my name and asked how I was doing on those gloomy mornings.

Shy? Not really... More of, what if I bumped into you, What will I say, or what would you say? So, I'd rather stay away...

I wish I could see you right now. But just not by accident.

***

Dear, all I hope right now, is for everything to be normal again.
I don't understand when nothing even happened between the two of us, we didn't fight, we didn't argue, we hardly have misunderstandings..I don't get why from the warm you, you became so icy cold.

I only recall one incident that you said, which you didn't even want to tell me what it was. After that, you just became someone whom I hardly know..

I really don't want this to go on anymore..

I'm having a fever and my gastric is not any better..I don't want to cry anymore when I think of you, cos I used to laugh and smile whenever I do.

I really missed the you-used-to-be. So much.

If only you knew..If only..

Take care dear. Please do.
Missing you loads.

*Sometimes I wish you'd just bump into my blog again. Least you will know, I didn't lie to you... ;'(

siaosiao @ 1:26 AM

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