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Monday, July 31, 2006

Two Doors

At most times, I complain. I wonder.
Why, when every time I find a real good close friend, that friend always drifts away.

Always wondering what have I ever done in the past to deserve whatever I'm facing now.
Why can't I continue to have Rachel as my bestfriend and why can't I continue to have him as close as he was earlier.

Whenever I feel like the world's crumbling down on me, I'd always write. Write to God to tell Him and ask Him about things I don't understand.

I was crying while I was writing and thinking in frustration the whole time.

Suddenly, felt like going to the toilet.
Went toilet. Ouhkay, toilet done, lets get back to writing.

*turns door knob* eh.. why cannot open wan the door?!
*turns and turns and turns* eh.. still cannot open ler..

Habis. How am I going to get out of the toilet at 12.30 in the morning ! When meifern is already sleeping and no one else is available to get me out of the toiletttt !

Nothing for me to try to push that metal thing in between the door, like openning the door manually. Sheet.

I felt so lost. Felt so dunno what to do. The other door attached to the bedroom, behind it was a rack. BOOK rack ! How to push ! I could only open the door wide enough to put half my arm through ! Hurt it a lil, but still couldn't get out.

Then, suddenly, I realise.. Why so bodo. Why didn't I think of it earlier.
Most of you reading this won't understand or believe how I got out.
But I guess God's just trying to teach me something.

So I prayed. Just a simple prayer. And I tried turning the knob again. IT TURNED ! And I was out !

Sounds like a fairy tale? But it really did happen. It really did.

I realised. All these while, I've always been praying bout stuff. Praying for Rachel praying for him. Always getting sad and depressed and always wodnering why things have to be the way they are.

Guess, I need to collect a lil bit more of patience and endurance.

*sighs*

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Dear, I dunno how long more I have to wait for you.. But I will wait.
Nite dear. Rest well. *hargs & kiss*

siaosiao @ 12:27 AM

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