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Thursday, June 15, 2006

Should She Call

All I did was ask if we could go for dinner.

And I got such negative responses.

I didn't even insist. I only asked. Without expecting an answer even.

What did I say that made you feel bad? Why does everything I say makes you feel bad?

Now I feel like sheeet. I feel like I'm the worst person on earth.

Dear,

You haven't been talking to me as much as before. Sometimes I even feel like I'm being abandoned. You were the one that gained my trust. You're the one that convinced me to believe you. Now you're the one treating me this way.

I feel bad everytime I say something that doesn't sound too good. I'm even too scared to make any joke of any form. Scared and afraid that I might indirectly remind of you of anything and hurt you.

If only you knew how much I have to think before uttering a full sentence to you without hurting you.. I think you will understand how I feel most of the time.

All you've promised, I hope you keep it.

As irritating as I may sound, its only because I miss you so much and at the same time I worry alot of what you do most of the time.
If I don't know how to worry, I don't think I'm human.

If I had a few wishes, I wish I could see you more often and I wish I could call you whenever I want to.

I just don't understand, why can't I call you when I need to. It hurts, it really hurst, whenever you cancel my calls. What did I do to deserve those? I don't know.

I have never given so much of my time to someone and have never spent so much time thinking what I should do to comfort you nor have I ever spent so much time thinking of how to grow up and to change so much of my bad habits simply because I respect you. For who you are and of what you're made of.

No matter how bad you become, or no matter how shitty life could be, I'm always here, right by your side.

+wernjun

siaosiao @ 10:19 AM

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